November 2008

Thanks for Giving

In our lives, we often take most everything we have for granted, I know I do. There’s little things that we may brush off as nothing that we actually have to be thankful for. So, I thought about this for a little while, most of yesterday, and I really do have a lot to be thankful for. It may not all be mentioned in this blog, because I didn’t write it down at the time, I just thought about it, so, if I miss anything, my apologies in advance, but you are thanked and loved.

I’m very lucky I have two parents who love me unconditionally. I’m thankful that, even at my worst, they can handle me. I’m thankful that my dad is letting me move in with him after I graduate, so I can live rent free and hopefully get a job in Denver. I’m thankful that my parents were able to put me through my first two years of college. That thing is expensive! Luckily, I don’t go to some high priced private college, so it’s cheaper, but not cheap enough.

I’m glad that I live in a country where I can be free; free to blog, to say my opinion, to wear the clothes that I want. I’m thankful that I have friends willing to defend our country, even if it makes me nervous and scared for them. I’m thankful that I had a grandfather who defended our country and that I was lucky enough to know him for twenty-two and a half years of my life. I would have pictures of my family up, which may sound cliche (oh well), but I got a new computer and I haven’t transferred all my files over yet.

I’m thankful that I have good friends. Friends who, despite mocking my obsession with the Rockies, give me good advice on working toward the top. Friends who I can vent to about everything. I’m so lucky to have the friends that I do. I have good memories with them and there’s no doubt in my mind that I’ll create future ones. I’m glad that I have friends who support my decisions and who aren’t one of those suffocating, clingy friends.

I’m grateful I can take out a student loan so I can pay for college now and pay for rent, even though I’m definitely not thankful I’ll have to pay it back, or at least really not looking forward to it. I’m thankful that I have a car, even though I don’t know anything about it, it can get me from point A to point B just fine. I’m thankful I have a roommate who showed me how to change the oil on my car, which saves me some much needed cash!

I’m thankful that I can make my friends laugh, that I have a working cell phone, an active social life, and a blog that, at least I, enjoy reading. I’m thankful I have the power to think, that I’m (for the most part) healthy. I have the enjoyment of laughing and the power to cry. I’m thankful I have a brand spankin’ new MacBook with a wallpaper composed of Garrett Atkins, Ryan Spilborghs, and Ryan Speier. Teehee.

I’m thankful that I live in a state with thin air. Man, when I go with my friend to visit her parents in Atlanta, I get off the plane and think “ahh!! Too much oxygen.” I’m thankful that Colorado is so incredibly beautiful. In fact, yesterday, at my mom’s house, I went outside and there was like this… it was like the air tasted like watermelon. You know, that crisp, fresh feeling. That sounds really weird, but it was better than going outside in Greeley and smelling cow.

I’m thankful for baseball. Duh. I’m so lucky that this sport has had such a powerful affect on my life. I’m thankful that I worship an awesome team with really amazing players. I’m thankful that I always have a good time when I go and watch them, even if it means sitting in the rain during a rain-delay because everyone in the Pavillion has retreated shelter. I’m thankful that through it all, I have baseball to retreat to.

I’m thankful for a lot, I’m very lucky to be living the life that I do. Through the ups and the downs, I’m surviving, and lucky to be in this world. My hope now, is that I can remember all this, the things that I have to be thankful for, not just on a day where you’re “supposed” to be thankful. But that I can be thankful for the next 364 days until Thanksgiving. So there it is. I’m extraordinarily lucky. 

Some random thoughts

Yesterday, I was ecstatic when I got a telephone call from Mr. Tom Probst. He is the medical director for the Colorado Rockies. I couldn’t even believe that he had returned my phone call, especially after I left him such a horrible message that went, something like this:

“Hi Mr. Probst, my name is Emily and I’m about to graduate college. I was wondering if you could provide me any information on… um… um… what your field is… um… yeah. If you could give me a call back, my number is ____________ or you can e-mail me at mars7799, ‘m’ as in… … … … … … … … … ‘m’ as in… … … … … … … … … … … … ‘m’ as in mark…” et cetera.

It was probably the worst message I’d ever left anybody in the history of messages I’d left people. And no, that wasn’t an exaggeration of how bad that message was, that was the actual message, practically transcribed verbatim. Sad, I know.

Anyway, so he returned my phone call, and I was completely excited, however, I was also very disappointed when I heard that the Rockies already had a sports psychologist that has been with the team for nine years, and they’re not looking for anyone new. Not even an understudy. That sucked to hear. But, I’m 23 years old, I have my whole life ahead of me to do exactly what I want to do, and trust me, I won’t stop until I get exactly where I want to be.

So, that’s the news with me. In other news, it would appear that the Mets are in discussions with free agent and former Rockies closer, Brian Fuentes. Since I really haven’t heard anything about the Rockies talkinManuelCorpas_2007_005.jpgg with Fuentes, it leads me to believe that there really haven’t been any. So, it sounds like the battle is on between Huston Street and Manuel Corpas. Stats aren’t everything, but let’s take a look at some, shall we? Last season, Manuel Corpas had four saves in thirteen opportunities and an ERA of 4.52. Nothing very impressive, the season before that, he had much better stats. The year he helped take the Rockies to the World Series, he had an ERA of 2.08 and made 19 saves in 22 opportunities. What a difference between a season. Corpas began having the closer position, but was quickly kicked out of it after he kept missing out on saving the game. Now, I’m not a big fan of Corpas, but I’ll give him this: everyone’s stats last season were pretty bad. No one was too impressed by the team as a whole, droHuston Street.jpgpping from NLCS champions to ten games behind.

Let’s take a look at Huston Street. Last season, Street had eighteen saves in twenty-five opportunities. He had an ERA of 3.73, now keep in mind, he had an off season as well. The season before that, Street had sixteen saves in twenty-one opportunities and an ERA of 2.88.

So, I just threw a bunch of statistics at you, that, for the most part, might not actually mean anything. But here’s what I’m looking at, and, it may be totally wrong, and it may not make any sense in any one else’s brain but mine, but it’s the way I think about things. Having an ERA of 2.88 and dropping to 3.73 versus an ERA of 2.08 dropping to 4.52 looks just a little bit better. Now, I understand, should Street stay with the Rockies, he will, ultimately, be fighting for the closing role. And Manuel Corpas isn’t letting down and will be fighting for closer head on. Hopefully Huston Street is currently doing the same thing and pondering about what his future might hold. I guess what it comes down to, since neither one was all too impressive last season, is “picking the lesser of two evils.” I put that in quotes because, that wasn’t really the way I wanted to phrase that, but it was the only one that came to mind.

My blog is where I get to voice my opinion. Pitching is hard, especially the closer role, the amount of pressure is inconceivable. So understand that when I say “neither performed well,” I don’t actually mean that they sucked. There’s a lot to think about as a pitcher and a lot to execute as well. So, here’s what my final personal thoughts are on the subject: I don’t know if Dan O’dowd is still considering trading Huston Street. If he can get someone better, then why not? But to have someone who, at the time, seems to be unreliable, you would at least want someone else that you know you can count on as a closer, and that’s why I think that Huston Street needs to not be traded and highly considered for the closing role.

And that is that. Also, this is my first blog where I actually became bold enough to try and figur eout how to put pictures in, so I hope it works!

My hopeful future…

Originally, I thought I would write a blog that didn’t have anything to do with baseball. Just something that was about me in all my glorious awesomeness. Ha ha, not really glorious, just regular awesomeness😉. But I thought after blogging nonstop about baseball, maybe it was time that I write a “normal” blog. One that’s more about me rather than the ramblings about what I think about the Rockies. So I started one, then I published it, then I deleted it. First of all, it was like, the worst thing I’d ever written in my life. My blogs, when I write them, I’m passionate. Can you tell? I hope so, because a lot of thought, thinking, debating goes into my blogs. I write about what I feel about baseball in my blog. I write about my love (or obsession) of a team. The blog that I had written about me, it felt empty. It lacked passion, there was no heart. As I was writing this, I had an epiphany; not that I needed it though, but it was: I can’t live without baseball. I thought I already knew this, my friends always make fun of me and are considering seeking professional help for me. At least, last I knew, it was still only at the “considering” phase.

Back in high school, I was completely obsessed with hockey. It was my life, I knew everything about the Avalanche, and I would never miss a game. After the lockout, there was a void in my life. I never quite got back into hockey, although I’m trying to now. But it just wasn’t the same, plus, I couldn’t get the channel that it was played on. So, there was just this emptiness where I couldn’t devote my fanhood to anything. Then, baseball came along. Contrary to popular belief, I didn’t jump on the Rockies bandwagon once they made it to the NLCS. I was still a Red Sox fan. Now, to anyone out there thinking I am a traitor for being a Red Sox fan, I’ll have you know… that’s ridiculous. I was indifferent when it came to the World Series. It would have been so freaking amazing to see the Rockies win for the first time, but if the Red Sox were to win, I wouldn’t complain. In fact, there wouldn’t even be this “rivalry” had neither team made it to the World Series, so technically, my belief stems from this idea that there isn’t a rivalry at all. People just hate Boston and call them the new Yankees, which they are NOT. But that’s a different tangent that I shouldn’t go on about.

The point was this, I can’t live without this sport, this past time, whatever you want to call it. It’s what I breathe. I’m now searching for a job in sports psychology, my dream: working for the Rockies. I can picture some cynical person trying to make a snide comment like, “why not go work for your precious Red Sox?” Well, the fact is, they’re not in need of it. And this isn’t supposed to come off like, “Oh the Rockies are so terrible, they obviously need my help.” Right now, I’m interning at a domestic violence safe house. My goal in life is to help people achieve their very best, it’s what I want: to see other people succeed. I would love nothing more than to see the Rockies succeed and I want to be part of the reason they do. Even Ted Williams, one of the greatest hitters of all time (and yes, he’s a Red Sox player) said that 50% of hitting is above the shoulders. That means it’s mental. You couldn’t ask me about any time when Ted Williams played, by the way, I wouldn’t know… something like the… 30’s…? That’s a guess. Anyway, I have a lot of respect for the guy, is the point. One of the best of the best, in fact, someone who is considered the best of all time, will (or would have, he’s dead now) tell you that at least part of the game is mental. That is why I want to be a sports psychologist. To help people become the best of the best.

I’m in the computer lab at my school, and I’m hearing people talk about being a school psychologist. I believe that’s all well and good, and I could devote my time to something like that… that is, if I actually knew what to do with children. But as I said before, I can’t live without this. I can’t go a day without thinking about baseball, without wondering how that California weather is treating Garrett Atkins, without wondering if Ryan Spilborghs is worried about playing Left Field, without pondering if Huston Street is preparing for the challenge of fighting for closer. Yeah, these are things I think about. This is what I breathe, it’s what I live for, it’s what I do. There’s nothing in this life that I think about more than baseball… school comes close though… er… sort of. But I know, for certain, this is what I’m destined for.

Now, this, this blog, that actually has passion in it, but also tells you about me, this is worth publishing.

Same old story as last time

When it came down to the 2009 season, the Rockies realized they had a decision to make: Matt Holliday or Garrett Atkins. They didn’t choose Matt Holliday, but they didn’t choose Garrett Atkins either… at least, not yet.

What I had originally thought was the whole reason for the discussions of those trades was because the Rockies didn’t have enough money in their budget to resign both players. Well, now they’ve gotten rid of one, and in return, they received an unstable closing pitcher, an injury prone starting pitcher, and an outfielder who may be sent down to AAA. Now, in my opinion, they could’ve gotten something better for a big name like Matt Holliday. So the Rockies traded away Matt Holliday, but they still haven’t officially chosen Garrett Atkins.

I thought that was the problem that they were facing when it came down to who they wanted to stay… or get rid of… or trade away. Whatever the case, it sounded like the Rockies could only keep one, and from the way they were putting it, they actually wanted to keep one. That’s not the way it sounds so much anymore… but shouldn’t it be?

This may sound repetitive to my previous blog, but I just can’t get over what I keep trying to figure out. It’s something that I keep thinking about and that I have dreams about. Yeah, it is a little sad; fanhood can be sad though.

Todd Helton is recently coming off the DL. In a season of 162 games, he played 83 of them; about half. At this very moment, he’s in a serious rehab training trying to get back into shape. His rehab training is incredibly restrictive, he hasn’t done any weight training yet, just tread mills and bikes. He has plenty of time though, spring training is a little more than four months away. But he does have a lot of work to do, even he will admit that. I’m not a doctor, so everything I know about the surgery that Helton had either came from my making it up, or things that I heard. One of the good things about arthroscopic surgery is that since it’s not very invasive, the recovery time should be faster, but like any surgery, it’s dependent on the person and where the procedure itself took place.

The basic hope is that Todd Helton will be back to his normal self come spring training. He is the epitome of a leader. Like Rod Smith of the Broncos and Joe Sakic of the Avalanche, his leadership skills are reflective both on and off the field. Like I said before, it’s a hope that Helton will be back to normal, the question is, will he be? What would happen if he wasn’t? Well, we’d probably have Ian Stewart at third, Troy Tulowitzki at short, Clint Barmes at second, and… who would be at first? Omar Quintinilla typically is seen at short or second. The problem doesn’t come just defensively, but also offensively. Essentially, what is necessary is a player who can commit in both fielding and batting. Not only that, but by losing a player on the field like Helton, it’s necessary to have a leadership role. That would have been Holliday, but now he no longer exists in the lineup.

I’m pretty much going to have to say it again, but the best leadership role is Garrett Atkins. Of the team last season, he had the most at bats, led the club in RBI’s, comes in second for HR (behind Brad Hawpe), and is ranked third in batting average in the club. He’s a good player. I’ll just sum this up with a question that’s been plaguing my mind: we just got rid of one of our very best players for some injury prone, inconsistent, possibly AAA worthy players; why get rid of our next best?

Garrett Atkins, this one’s for you

Now that the trade with Matt Holliday is pretty much official, there’s another thought looming over the minds of Rockies lovers: what will happen to Garrett Atkins? Nothing official yet. He still has two seasons in his contract, but the odds that he’ll be sticking around here seem to be slimming as the days drag on. The prognosis of this situation: well… not good. But that’s not how it should be. In fact, keeping Garrett Atkins would be optimal for the Rockies.

I understand the need for pitching. It makes a lot of sense, in fact. Pitching is like 90% of the game. But do you really want to get rid of your strong players? The one’s who brought you to the World Series? That seems ridiculous. And Garrett Atkins has been an incredibly strong player. His stats reveal it. Like all players, he’s had his up and downs, but his career stats are beyond stunning. In 2005, he had 89 RBI’s. Ten less than he had this season. But this season was pretty bad for everyone. As you know, the Rockies fell from being the NLCS champions to ten games behind. 2006 was absolutely his best season, he had 120 RBI’s and 29 home runs. Not only that, but his OBP .409 and his slugging average is .556. Amazing stats. His 2007 stats fell a little, but not much. With 111 RBI’s, 25 home runs, and a slugging average of .486. This was the season that the Rockies went to the World Series. This past season, his stats took a small beating. Made 99 RBI’s, 21 home runs, and a slugging average of .452. Yes, his stats fell, but that doesn’t make him an inconsistent player.

What you’re losing is so much bigger than just a player. Garrett Atkins was signed into the organization as an amateur. It was through this very organization that he grew into such a phenomenal player. For me, getting rid of Atkins is getting rid of a piece of history. I know what you’re thinking, “in 2004, getting rid of Larry Walker was getting rid of a piece of history, and some how fans got over it, you’ll get over this.” That is where you’re wrong. This team compromises my life. There’s nothing that I know better than this team, it’s my life, it’s what I can talk about with people, it’s why I started a blog dedicated to this very subject.

Maybe Atkins was being nice when he said that he wanted to spend his entire career here. Who wouldn’t? A great club, great friends, and thousands of fans who love you. Trading Atkins away is something that I’d never get over. Losing Holliday was bad enough, and yeah, it was like losing a piece of my soul, but Atkins would take a far worse toll on me. It would be like losing a part of my life. Once again, I can picture you saying, “oh, don’t be so dramatic.” But it’s true. Garrett Atkins and Ryan Spilborghs compose my wallpaper (on my computer, just to clarify; it’s not like I’m one of those teenage girls who puts their posters all over my wall… although if they made them… ha ha, just kidding). Any one who knows me knows that this team is my life, these guys are what I know.

We’re in need of a closer. Why not keep Huston Street? Manny Corpas has proven that he is not going to be a good option for a closer. Taylor Buccholz, although a good option, lacks the experience to be put into such a high pressure position. Huston Street has the experience, and despite the set backs he experienced last season, he would still make a better closer than Manny Corpas. It sounds like the Rockies are looking to trade away Huston Street and possibly throw Garrett Atkins into that deal. Boo. That’s all I have to say to that.

You’re throwing away a player who has spent his entire career with the Rockies. Even Clint Hurdle said it was ridiculous to think that we’d be getting rid of two of our strongest players. That’s right, our strongest players. Yes, it’s “part of the business” to trade players and move them around, but it’s also true that you’re getting rid of a piece of history; someone who has spent their whole career with a franchise. Someone the fans know and love.

I don’t expect Garrett Atkins to read this and be like, “oh, someone out there loves me.” No, that’s a completely stupid idea. As much as I would love for him to realize how much he means to his fans, it’s not going to happen. Just like Dan O’dowd won’t read this and be like, “hmm… this person’s right, Atkins is a great player.” No, that’s just as stupid. But I wouldn’t mind if someone realized it. I just want to reassure myself, I guess, that if Garrett Atkins goes, he left leaving at least one person with a heavy heart. Bleh, what a chick thing to say. If Atkins goes, it’ll be yet another devastating move that O’dowd makes to a team that has already suffered a huge loss.

So I did want to dedicate a blog to Garrett Atkins, which may sound pathetic. But I wanted the world to know, that yet another piece of Rockies history may be lost this off season. And whoever will pick up Atkins, if and when he is traded or a free agent, will be one luck son of a… gun.

It’s like dying a little inside…

This day was bound to come. In the slightly skewed words from V for Vendetta, “Remember, remember, the eleventh of November.”

It’s time for Rockies fans to say goodbye to that famous number five uniform. After hearing about the talking, the dealing, the speculation for so long, the day has finally arrived. Imagine seeing one of our biggest stars put on an Oakland A’s uniform for the first time. The new face of the Rockies will now be nothing more than a memory and a phenomenal player in a green uniform. The A’s have no idea how lucky they are.

In this exchange, we’re receiving three players from the A’s: Greg Smith, Huston Street, and Carlos Gonzalez. We’re in desperate need of starters. Greg Smith could be an excellent addition to the team. Although he has an ERA of 4… something, he’s young. The fact is, we’re not just in need of starters, we’re in need of pitchers in general. Huston Street could be worth it, despite that the Rockies are talking about trading him away as well. In fact, if you’re going to keep a reliever, it better be Huston Street over Glendon Rusch. In my opinion, Rusch isn’t anything special, and Huston Street is a better prospect than he is. Carlos Gonzalez is a very young player, and very new to the scene. He could easily be molded into a great player.

To search for the silver lining in such a deal almost seemed impossible. Yeah, we were getting three guys for one, but that one is one of the best in the business. Ryan Spilborghs, who I have to admit is one of my favorite players, will hopefully be put into a starting position in left field. With more playing time, that could develop him into a better player; one that, could never replace Holliday, but be good in that position. The next thing that I have to keep telling myself is that free agency is just one year away. There’s possibilities that we’ll realize we made a mistake and want Holliday back. He’ll come at a price, but it’ll be for one of the best in the business. If we don’t get him back… well, I’d prefer not to think of that. But maybe he’ll take the EY approach and retire here, not that he’s anywhere near retiring. It’s really early to start thinking like that.

The title, maybe it was a little over dramatic, but it’s also true. To see one our best players go, it hurts. But there’s hope in the future. I’m excited to see one of my favorites, Spilborghs, play at a full time position. We’re in need of pitchers, and free agency is one year away.

Oh wait… there’s more. With all this buzz in the air about the one and only Matt Holliday, what will happen with Garrett Atkins? The best hope is that he’ll choose to stay with a fine franchise and will develop into an even better player than he is now. The prospect feels small, with Helton returning after surgery and Ian Stewart not backing down at third, will there be a place for Atkins? The man has only shown improvement throughout his career, the very thought that he might be in a trade deal almost seems… ludacris. To loose one our best was bad enough, but two? Yeah… it would definitely be like dying a litle inside.

How’s it gonna be, part two

I didn’t think that my last blog was going to be a part one. In fact, I didn’t design it that way at all. Quite the contrary, I thought it would be: here’s my thought, end of story. However, like a naive person, I didn’t quite have all the facts. In fact, things have changed so much, that I almost feel as though my call to loyalty was out of line. Not that I don’t believe in loyalty to a team, but the way that I presented it was not necessarily in the best manner possible.

How has the opinion suddenly changed? Well, I guess I can blame the management for that one. First, I need to figure out the details on paper… or computer. Although the previous blog was about Matt Holliday, this one needs to begin with Mr. Todd Helton. Todd Helton is a fantastic player, in fact, he’s probably the most well known player on the team, the second being Holliday. His contract with the Rockies ends in 2011, and he has a no trade agreement. Throughout his career he’s had 310 home runs, 1,116 RBI’s, and .574 slugging average. He’s a great player is pretty much how it is. Good enough that even the Red Sox wanted him. However, he is also the cause for the Rockies not resigning Matt Holliday.

I don’t want this to sound like I’m actually blaming Todd Helton for not resigning Holliday. But, he does have something to do with it. With such a long contract and the no trade agreement, the Rockies realized that they made a terrible mistake. A ten year agreement? It’s up there with Alex Rodriguez and Derek Jeter. What adds on to the mistake is the no trade agreement. To me, it almost seems that the Rockies would ultimately like to take Todd Helton off their roster; unfortunately they can’t do that. This makes them hesitant to sign Matt Holliday to such a long agreement.

The Rockies offered Matt Holliday a six year agreement, he wants an eight year. This creates a problem. The Rockies are very hesitant to resign any player to such a long contract after realizing their mistake with Helton. Not that Helton is a mistake, that’s not what I’m saying. He’s obviously a great player. But the mistake came from his contract. Holliday’s agent, Scott Boras is known as being… well… since this is an opinion, I guess I can say what I want. Boras would like to claim to that he looks out for his players and that he works for them. I must say, I disagree. I believe that Boras is known for being more interested in the money rather than the betterment of a team. My guess, is rather than compromising, Boras is looking for the most that he can get out of the deal.

What would be best for the team? If Matt Holliday did sign an eight year contract, but he had a no trade agreement or if he signed a six year contract, like the Rockies offered, with a no trade agreement. Six years really isn’t that long of a time. Holliday’s career stats include 128 home runs, 483 RBI’s, and a .552 slugging average. He’s a great player. Like I said before, he could get with any team that he’d like. Unfortunately, because of such a mistake with Helton’s contract, the Rockies are cautious about any “risks” they might be taking.

So what does this mean for the previous blog? It’s not completely out of the picture. A six year agreement is still good. If you prove yourself a valuable player, then who wouldn’t resign you? It should also make you want to prove yourself. Prove that you’re worth the contract you signed and more. That you could probably kick anybody’s *** on the field. Is *** an appropriate word to use? Meh, it’s my blog, I can say what I want… hopefully.

I’m the fan who wants it all and, like any fan, my way: I don’t want to see Willy Taveras resigned, I wouldn’t have any problem trading Jeff Baker away, I don’t mind bringing up players from the minor league if it means we get to keep the big names. I have a lot on my mind right now. But the biggest thing I want: Matt Holliday and Garrett Atkins. It would damn near kill me to see them go. Weird, baseball is supposed to be relaxing and yet, it almost seems to be one of the biggest stressers in my life.

Well, this blog may seem contradictory to itself or my previous one, but I just need to figure some things out.

How’s it gonna be?

First of all, that was the best title I could come up with.

What is going on? I feel like there should be some loyalty to a team. If you have a dream that you can make it to the World Series, you should be willing to take a team all the way. It’s the personal responsibility of every player to do what they can to promote the potential greatness that a team can achieve. YOU could be part of something bigger. This almost sounds like some army recruitment thing, but it’s not. No, this is about the team that I know better than anything else in my life and the team that I love.

Let me begin by saying, it’s come to my attention that in my life I really have nothing useful to talk about. I’m incredibly awkward during phone conversations and the only conversations I can have with people are, “so… do you like… stuff?” There’s only one thing in this life that I do know, and that’s baseball. Get me started on baseball, I could talk for hours. Even in a drunken state, I could talk about the Red Sox or the Rockies or why Tim Lincecum’s pitching is so freakishly awesome. Baseball is the only subject that I care about. It’s what I want my career to be, a baseball sports psychologist. This is what I talk about. That’s why I started a blog specifically for baseball. I can be wrong, but it’s where I get to deconstruct any thoughts that I have.

Now, what I would really like to deconstruct my thoughts about. Matt Holliday and Garrett Atkins. We’re going to lose both, aren’t we? Matt Holliday wants a club that can get him to the World Series, he wants a club that at least shows a chance of becoming something great. Think back, back to when you saw that throw to Todd Helton. hink back to the feeling you had when Matt Holliday scored that run, what told them they were going to the World Series. Think about the way it made you feel. Amazing, right? I get goose bumps everytime I see that moment. That commercial where Holliday eats that donut thing and then at the end, they say “Holliday is in! The Rockies are headed to the World Series.” That sheer moment of utter ecstatsy in that team. Yes, the point of playing is to make it to the World Series, but should it come easy?

I’ve been working my tail off trying to get contacts for the Rockies to try and see what I can do about sports psychology. Let me tell you, it’s not coming easy by any means. After the 1980 US Olympic hockey team beat the Russians, there was pure rejoicing on their face. The Russians would later say that it was almost as if they forgot what winning was like. They didn’t have the heart that the Americans did and when they won, the joy wasn’t reflected in them as it was in the Americans.

Everybody wants to win. There’s no doubt about that. But wouldn’t it mean more to bring a team that has so little to something great? The Rockies aren’t a big club. They can’t pick up the big names and that makes it difficult to recruit talent. Everybody comes at a price. But there should be a drive to become something great, regardless of how much you’re making.

I have incredible respect for Matt Holliday. The man is completely phenomenal in every aspect of the game. I know it’s totally the chick thing to say “he has the nicest butt I have ever seen,” but that… really has nothing to do with what I’m trying to say. Apparently the alcohol is affecting my writing skills. Matt Holliday was a part of something great. Something completely miraculous. You may not always be the team that makes it to the _LCS or even the World Series, but shouldn’t the feeling of being something so astounding, so fantastic, so incredibly out of this world make you want to stay? This goes for Garrett Atkins too. Greatness is never achieved through easy means. You have to work hard to get exactly what you want most in life. I definitely need to take my own advice. That’s not the point though.

There’s nothing wrong with testing the waters of free agency. The hope though, is that some part wants to stay loyal to a team where everyone recognizes you. Matt Holliday is good enough to get with any team he wants, same with Atkins. The point of this was to understand that something so small could turn into something so great. That the effort, the drive, the motivation that one person puts in can drive a team to want to be better, to want to be more, to want it bad enough to do whatever it takes to get it (including hiring an awesome sports psychologist😉 ).

So, since it seems loyalty to a team is lacking, and people want more than the feeling of achieving something so great by something so small, the question is, how’s it gonna be?

The first blog

How do you even start a blog? Writing something that, probably for the most part, no one will read. I will be a good way to vent about the going ons.

Going from a season of being the NL champions to falling to third in the division. Ten games behind is pretty rough. But we can come back next season… right?

To start out, Fuentes has now filed for free agency. That sucks since he had 30 saves this season. Buchholz, however, could be a good replacement. Although he does not have near the experience, he’s showed great potential having an ERA 2.17. Corpas… I’m not a big fan of his, 4 saves with 13 opportunities, I really just don’t like him is the problem. As far as middle relievers and set-up men, I feel Speier should definitely be signed, he’s proven himself. Rusch, Reynolds, and Register don’t seem to find much favor with me either. If Luis Vizcaino can prove himself… that would be good. Grilli’s an excellent set-up man though.

The big question looming over minds these days is Matt Holliday and Garrett Atkins. One of the most difficult decisions any person would have to make when questioning which one to get rid of. Based off the rumors, Holliday is looking to test the waters of free agency. Nobody wants to see either of these guys leave the club, but one has to. If Matt Holliday leaves, there are a lot of OF to take his spot: Spilborghs, Podsednik, Fowler, and Smith has potential. I left Taveras out of that list for a reason. Brad Hawpe matched Holliday in home runs this season. There certainly wouldn’t be the same kind of play, but he could easily be put in the clean up spot. However, with Todd Helton returning, Ian Stewart’s been phenomenal at third base. With a utility player like Barmes, it almost makes sense to get rid of Atkins. However, this season the Rockies suffered a lot of injuries, including Todd Helton and Troy Tulowitzki. Although Joe Koshansky did well on first base when he was there, he can’t bring in the runs like Atkins, who led the club in RBIs, can. So if a seasoned player like Todd Helton were to get injured again, having a first basemen like Atkins would make the most sense. Jeff Baker didn’t seem to show a lot of potential until the end of the season. With someone who doesn’t seem to be too consistent, doesn’t make a lot of sense to me to keep him. Omar Quintinilla is good for second base, and short stop too. And who could forget that walk off home run? Deciding who needs to go is… impossible. Atkins and Holliday both put up such good stats; they’re two of the best players on the team.

It is, however, time to let Taveras go. A lead off hitter needs to get on base, that’s his job. Not only that, but he also has to be reliable in working the count and the fact is, Taveras’ average has suffered massively this season. He’s got the speed, but the team could make that up with Dexter Fowler. His batting average was so unimpressive this season, that letting him go does seem like the best option.

All I can say is, I’m glad that I’m not the one who actually has to make these decisions.